Well, I guess it is the end of it all... my college career is over, no more child-like behavior, from now on it's interviews and responsibilities. At first, I was all set to graduate, nothing was going to stop me, but now all I can think about is what I could have done to make it better. I complained a lot and fought a lot, but I could have avoided it all. It's too bad that I have regrets, but I know if I just linger then I'd just be upset with myself for the next few weeks.
I've been thinking about what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. I have this idea for the summer, but I'm not sure where it will go. As of right now, I'm waiting upon Discovery which seems to be a smaller chance as each day goes on, but I know that one day, I'll be able to get to where I want to be and be back at that company. I have a temp job set up just in case I don't get Discovery, but I'm not sure as to where to go from here. This will be my last summer. Ever. No more 120 day summers, which I haven't had for the past 3 years, and no more spare time. Should I travel for two months, go back to the temp agency and start work then? Or should I just begin work right out of college? I know what people want me to do, but after I spoke with my mother, she didn't seem too worried if I got a job or not. It's as if she didn't care. I'll have to talk to them again to be sure, but if this is the case...then I think I might go for it. See Paris one last time, go to beautiful places of northern Europe and sunbath on the Mediterranean beaches? It all seems go glamorous, but I'll need a travel partner and money. Should I work for a few months, stop, then travel? I don't know! My brain is fussing with me and as I sit here, I should be finishing my last project of the semester, but all I can think about is what comes after.
What does come after? I know there are those sternies that graduate with jobs in the financial district starting at 60 grand a year, but I'm not one of those people. I don't like my cookie cutter lifestyle. I want to do exciting things, I want to live in LA and Paris for a few years. It's time for a change. I just don't know how to tell the people that are close to me that this is my next step. I don't know.
