How does one embrace everything they have?
I am a very lucky person but I absolutely do not know how to appreciate what I have. I always want more. Is this ambition or greed?
How do I be ambitious without being too greedy?
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
IT WORKED.
I guess complaining worked to some extent because I have a job and an apartment now. This is awesome. Maybe if I complain about other things, it will work the same way? I lie. This was after maybe more than a handful of practice/real interviews. It paid off. I started Monday, so far, lost and confused. But, I'm sure I'll pick it up. Or I hope so!
My friend and I found an apartment in an up and coming area in Brooklyn. It's on a nice street and well, the apartment isn't bad at all. I don't know how if our application will go through, but we'll see soon enough.
Just wanted to update because my last one was just whiny. Awesome.
My friend and I found an apartment in an up and coming area in Brooklyn. It's on a nice street and well, the apartment isn't bad at all. I don't know how if our application will go through, but we'll see soon enough.
Just wanted to update because my last one was just whiny. Awesome.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Move on out.
Can someone please help me find a job so I can start my career and get out of this place?
I swear, the longer I stay, the worse it gets. That's why people do not live at home, especially in a place where the house is definitely, not a home. Instead it's an infested place that's perfect for breeding passive aggressive nonsensical anger. My siblings are both the same, both are present hedonistic people who do not like to think about their future. They think now is forever, but if you're going to grow up, you need to think about the future. The only way to move forward if to plan for the future. Yes, we all want to "be children" forever. Or do we? Is it because we have no responsibilities? Because we mooch off our parents? Because we don't have to move forward with out lives? Are people not just the least bit curious of what they could be? What they can work toward? How do you think Steve Jobs became who he was? How did new technologies evolve? Why are we so aware of social responsibility and environmentally friendly companies? Passion drives us to our futures, to ensuring our future lives will be better. If we all focus on the now, there will be no tomorrow.
Don't throw that "I could die any second" bull to me, because I know life is short. We can make the most of our lives now even if we think toward the future. It's called being spontaneous, that's what playing hooky is for. I'm not asking for them to plan each day of their lives, I'm asking them to set a goal and be responsible about it. My parents won't be alive forever, but they don't care. They think they'll live well forever. You know, at my brother's age I was thinking about where I was going to go to school, how I should study for my SATs, what do I like doing, who do I want to be when I grow up? My brother focuses on getting a girlfriend, porn, and his "friends." His friends who use my family's money to throw themselves parties and wreck our basement. Friends who think drinking and driving are cool. Friends that ignore him when he has problems to discuss. Yes, those friends. He, well not he entirely, my sister as well are going to drive this family into the dark hole of bankruptcy - of morality and wealth.
I need a job to be able to support myself when all of this happens. In about 2 years. So I need a job now to save up and run away.
I swear, the longer I stay, the worse it gets. That's why people do not live at home, especially in a place where the house is definitely, not a home. Instead it's an infested place that's perfect for breeding passive aggressive nonsensical anger. My siblings are both the same, both are present hedonistic people who do not like to think about their future. They think now is forever, but if you're going to grow up, you need to think about the future. The only way to move forward if to plan for the future. Yes, we all want to "be children" forever. Or do we? Is it because we have no responsibilities? Because we mooch off our parents? Because we don't have to move forward with out lives? Are people not just the least bit curious of what they could be? What they can work toward? How do you think Steve Jobs became who he was? How did new technologies evolve? Why are we so aware of social responsibility and environmentally friendly companies? Passion drives us to our futures, to ensuring our future lives will be better. If we all focus on the now, there will be no tomorrow.
Don't throw that "I could die any second" bull to me, because I know life is short. We can make the most of our lives now even if we think toward the future. It's called being spontaneous, that's what playing hooky is for. I'm not asking for them to plan each day of their lives, I'm asking them to set a goal and be responsible about it. My parents won't be alive forever, but they don't care. They think they'll live well forever. You know, at my brother's age I was thinking about where I was going to go to school, how I should study for my SATs, what do I like doing, who do I want to be when I grow up? My brother focuses on getting a girlfriend, porn, and his "friends." His friends who use my family's money to throw themselves parties and wreck our basement. Friends who think drinking and driving are cool. Friends that ignore him when he has problems to discuss. Yes, those friends. He, well not he entirely, my sister as well are going to drive this family into the dark hole of bankruptcy - of morality and wealth.
I need a job to be able to support myself when all of this happens. In about 2 years. So I need a job now to save up and run away.
Racism.
I was watching this video and it brought up the issue of racism for models in the fashion world. (This is focusing mainly on American racism.)
I like how there are so many various issues when it comes to racism and it usually resorts back to how there is tension between black and white. But, if you watch the video there's also a mention of the same discrimination for asian women and worse for latina women. Given, not all of us have the potential to be models because our races are known to be shorter, but there are always a token few that want to and are tall enough to be in the fashion industry. What I'm wondering is, people who bring up racism are the ones who question theirs and others races or ethnicity. I know that we are all a little racist - if you say you aren't, you lie - but why is it that it's always black people who are singled out? From what I observe, the politically correct term is no longer African American because except for a few people, most of the black generation is born and raised in the U.S. Yes, although black people, even asian people have ancestry in other countries, if you are not a first generation or second generation child, then you are completely American. I say this because first generation children may carry some cultural values of their parents while adapting to the American culture, and second generation children only get a fraction of what their parents picked up from their parents and are basically fully immersed in the American culture.
Yes, black people have endured slavery and racism, but don't asians and latinas suffer the same racist attitudes as well? Latinas are more hidden and it seems that most are either still with green cards or first generation. Asian people however are less hidden but speak up less against others because of our nature (again, first generation children). Asians and Latino/latinas are now stereotyped as blue collar workers that are experiencing the same work and treatment black people used to endure? The only difference is, they get paid a very small wage. Fair or not?
Do you think it's okay for people to say "ni hao" or "ching chang chong" where ever we go? Do you think it's funny? Because I for one, don't think so. It's not just white people that are extremely racist, black, asian, latina, blue, purple, red people are all racist but not everyone speaks out against it. Most asian people have to suffer from stereotypes and racism but we rarely say anything because we choose not to arouse conflict, but if we do, there's a huge debacle about how we're racist (especially with black or latino/latinas). Sorry it's difficult for us to fit in, sorry it's difficult for you to fit in, but we're all in America, trying to make it through the day, there is no reason for anyone to think that only one race is singled out or that faces more discrimination than another. It's America, it's a white country. Unless you're rich or gorgeous and white, it's going to be difficult. I just don't think it's okay for this video to show that it's usually black people that face harsh criticism when all races face the same discrimination. The girl never talks about that, only that because she's black, people are racist against her. Only the woman that works at the magazine informs us that it's a variety of races and ethnic people that face the same discrimination, even though she's only in the film for a minute or two.
I like how there are so many various issues when it comes to racism and it usually resorts back to how there is tension between black and white. But, if you watch the video there's also a mention of the same discrimination for asian women and worse for latina women. Given, not all of us have the potential to be models because our races are known to be shorter, but there are always a token few that want to and are tall enough to be in the fashion industry. What I'm wondering is, people who bring up racism are the ones who question theirs and others races or ethnicity. I know that we are all a little racist - if you say you aren't, you lie - but why is it that it's always black people who are singled out? From what I observe, the politically correct term is no longer African American because except for a few people, most of the black generation is born and raised in the U.S. Yes, although black people, even asian people have ancestry in other countries, if you are not a first generation or second generation child, then you are completely American. I say this because first generation children may carry some cultural values of their parents while adapting to the American culture, and second generation children only get a fraction of what their parents picked up from their parents and are basically fully immersed in the American culture.
Yes, black people have endured slavery and racism, but don't asians and latinas suffer the same racist attitudes as well? Latinas are more hidden and it seems that most are either still with green cards or first generation. Asian people however are less hidden but speak up less against others because of our nature (again, first generation children). Asians and Latino/latinas are now stereotyped as blue collar workers that are experiencing the same work and treatment black people used to endure? The only difference is, they get paid a very small wage. Fair or not?
Do you think it's okay for people to say "ni hao" or "ching chang chong" where ever we go? Do you think it's funny? Because I for one, don't think so. It's not just white people that are extremely racist, black, asian, latina, blue, purple, red people are all racist but not everyone speaks out against it. Most asian people have to suffer from stereotypes and racism but we rarely say anything because we choose not to arouse conflict, but if we do, there's a huge debacle about how we're racist (especially with black or latino/latinas). Sorry it's difficult for us to fit in, sorry it's difficult for you to fit in, but we're all in America, trying to make it through the day, there is no reason for anyone to think that only one race is singled out or that faces more discrimination than another. It's America, it's a white country. Unless you're rich or gorgeous and white, it's going to be difficult. I just don't think it's okay for this video to show that it's usually black people that face harsh criticism when all races face the same discrimination. The girl never talks about that, only that because she's black, people are racist against her. Only the woman that works at the magazine informs us that it's a variety of races and ethnic people that face the same discrimination, even though she's only in the film for a minute or two.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Purgatory.
So, I'm in that awkward time between graduation and finding a job. At first, I thought it wouldn't be too much of a problem as long as my parents respected my space and encourage me to keep looking for a job. I always think the best of them. I fail in that field. Things are just not going well. There was a reason I was so unhappy in New Jersey and now I've figured out why. You know how families are supposed to be supportive and close and love you? Our family is the Asian WASP family. There is no acknowledging problems and whatever you do is your own business. What happens happens. And if you have a problem, too bad.
So, I got rejected from a few...well more than a few positions. After I reached the final round of interviews and the waiting period of either yes or no, they always end up with another person. I don't understand. I thought the whole process of going through various interviews would help me, I guess not. It's just really disappointing. Debbie Downer is in full effect. I've never really been rejected my whole life, and now, it's just a flood of them. It's breaking my heart and it's not even a man. I just want to be successful, but I can't even get my foot in the door. Internships were a breeze. People said it was more difficult to get an internship than a job. For me, it's the opposite. It's always the opposite! Whenever I think I do well on a test, I fail, whenever I think I did well in an interview, I did terrible, what I think is acceptable in attire, is not. Does my luck or my mind even care about my future? I swear. I am never lucky. Except when it comes to Broadway Rush tickets. Too bad, because I wrote that, I'll probably never win one again. A few interns I worked with last semester with less experience in the working field secured jobs in the fields I was looking for. They got jobs at networks I didn't look at, but they still got positions. I'm no where. I thought working hard would get me somewhere. Should I regret that? I don't even know what to do anymore.
My friend brought over her motorcycle today. All I want to do is get one and drive as far as I possible can. That's all I want. Seriously. No job thinks I'm qualified so why should I think I am? Friends keep telling me to get a retail job like it's okay. They wouldn't even stoop to that level and they expect me to? What are you thinking? You think I can support myself working a retail job? I'd still have to live at home. I'd be miserable at work and at home. It leads to suicide. That's what I'm thinking about right now. Just never in the mood to do anything anymore. I keep trying to keep this happy facade for the employers, but it just gets to the point where I can't even do it anymore.
Kill me now. This is what purgatory feels like right? I don't want to be here.
So, I got rejected from a few...well more than a few positions. After I reached the final round of interviews and the waiting period of either yes or no, they always end up with another person. I don't understand. I thought the whole process of going through various interviews would help me, I guess not. It's just really disappointing. Debbie Downer is in full effect. I've never really been rejected my whole life, and now, it's just a flood of them. It's breaking my heart and it's not even a man. I just want to be successful, but I can't even get my foot in the door. Internships were a breeze. People said it was more difficult to get an internship than a job. For me, it's the opposite. It's always the opposite! Whenever I think I do well on a test, I fail, whenever I think I did well in an interview, I did terrible, what I think is acceptable in attire, is not. Does my luck or my mind even care about my future? I swear. I am never lucky. Except when it comes to Broadway Rush tickets. Too bad, because I wrote that, I'll probably never win one again. A few interns I worked with last semester with less experience in the working field secured jobs in the fields I was looking for. They got jobs at networks I didn't look at, but they still got positions. I'm no where. I thought working hard would get me somewhere. Should I regret that? I don't even know what to do anymore.
My friend brought over her motorcycle today. All I want to do is get one and drive as far as I possible can. That's all I want. Seriously. No job thinks I'm qualified so why should I think I am? Friends keep telling me to get a retail job like it's okay. They wouldn't even stoop to that level and they expect me to? What are you thinking? You think I can support myself working a retail job? I'd still have to live at home. I'd be miserable at work and at home. It leads to suicide. That's what I'm thinking about right now. Just never in the mood to do anything anymore. I keep trying to keep this happy facade for the employers, but it just gets to the point where I can't even do it anymore.
Kill me now. This is what purgatory feels like right? I don't want to be here.
Monday, May 3, 2010
End of it All.
Well, I guess it is the end of it all... my college career is over, no more child-like behavior, from now on it's interviews and responsibilities. At first, I was all set to graduate, nothing was going to stop me, but now all I can think about is what I could have done to make it better. I complained a lot and fought a lot, but I could have avoided it all. It's too bad that I have regrets, but I know if I just linger then I'd just be upset with myself for the next few weeks.
I've been thinking about what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. I have this idea for the summer, but I'm not sure where it will go. As of right now, I'm waiting upon Discovery which seems to be a smaller chance as each day goes on, but I know that one day, I'll be able to get to where I want to be and be back at that company. I have a temp job set up just in case I don't get Discovery, but I'm not sure as to where to go from here. This will be my last summer. Ever. No more 120 day summers, which I haven't had for the past 3 years, and no more spare time. Should I travel for two months, go back to the temp agency and start work then? Or should I just begin work right out of college? I know what people want me to do, but after I spoke with my mother, she didn't seem too worried if I got a job or not. It's as if she didn't care. I'll have to talk to them again to be sure, but if this is the case...then I think I might go for it. See Paris one last time, go to beautiful places of northern Europe and sunbath on the Mediterranean beaches? It all seems go glamorous, but I'll need a travel partner and money. Should I work for a few months, stop, then travel? I don't know! My brain is fussing with me and as I sit here, I should be finishing my last project of the semester, but all I can think about is what comes after.
What does come after? I know there are those sternies that graduate with jobs in the financial district starting at 60 grand a year, but I'm not one of those people. I don't like my cookie cutter lifestyle. I want to do exciting things, I want to live in LA and Paris for a few years. It's time for a change. I just don't know how to tell the people that are close to me that this is my next step. I don't know.
I've been thinking about what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. I have this idea for the summer, but I'm not sure where it will go. As of right now, I'm waiting upon Discovery which seems to be a smaller chance as each day goes on, but I know that one day, I'll be able to get to where I want to be and be back at that company. I have a temp job set up just in case I don't get Discovery, but I'm not sure as to where to go from here. This will be my last summer. Ever. No more 120 day summers, which I haven't had for the past 3 years, and no more spare time. Should I travel for two months, go back to the temp agency and start work then? Or should I just begin work right out of college? I know what people want me to do, but after I spoke with my mother, she didn't seem too worried if I got a job or not. It's as if she didn't care. I'll have to talk to them again to be sure, but if this is the case...then I think I might go for it. See Paris one last time, go to beautiful places of northern Europe and sunbath on the Mediterranean beaches? It all seems go glamorous, but I'll need a travel partner and money. Should I work for a few months, stop, then travel? I don't know! My brain is fussing with me and as I sit here, I should be finishing my last project of the semester, but all I can think about is what comes after.
What does come after? I know there are those sternies that graduate with jobs in the financial district starting at 60 grand a year, but I'm not one of those people. I don't like my cookie cutter lifestyle. I want to do exciting things, I want to live in LA and Paris for a few years. It's time for a change. I just don't know how to tell the people that are close to me that this is my next step. I don't know.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Social Media ADD
So, because I have an obsession with moving from one thing to the next, or what some may call, ADD, I've created a tumblr because...well, just because. It can house my more fleeting thoughts as well as photographs and spur of the moment quote I find on tumbler anyway.
I'll still be resorting back to blogspot for my longer and more thoughtful posts. However, I do doubt there will be many posts this month as everything in my academic career and the beginning of my actual career begins this month, well, the month of April.
I'm going be excusing myself this month from any longer posts this month as I have 6 presentations, 6 papers which includes my thesis, and 2 finals in the next 30 days. Work has begun to make me worry about whether or not my chances will be good in obtaining a job at Discovery, so I'll be working longer and harder the last 2 weeks. Plus, graduation is around the corner. I need to focus.
All in all, the past month except for Puerto Rico has basically been the same. Seeing as I've been cheated a year and am being an overachiever in taking a number of classes, my social life will be nonexistent. I choose not to post, because if I do write anything longer, I'm sure they'll all be rants about how I hate my life and school, which isn't very acceptable anymore.
Growing up is difficult. If you know of any jobs that would suit me well, although I doubt it, feel free to contact me. Otherwise, I'll be applying for anything and everything that comes my way. Granted they're fields I'm interested in.
Wish me luck.
I'll still be resorting back to blogspot for my longer and more thoughtful posts. However, I do doubt there will be many posts this month as everything in my academic career and the beginning of my actual career begins this month, well, the month of April.
I'm going be excusing myself this month from any longer posts this month as I have 6 presentations, 6 papers which includes my thesis, and 2 finals in the next 30 days. Work has begun to make me worry about whether or not my chances will be good in obtaining a job at Discovery, so I'll be working longer and harder the last 2 weeks. Plus, graduation is around the corner. I need to focus.
All in all, the past month except for Puerto Rico has basically been the same. Seeing as I've been cheated a year and am being an overachiever in taking a number of classes, my social life will be nonexistent. I choose not to post, because if I do write anything longer, I'm sure they'll all be rants about how I hate my life and school, which isn't very acceptable anymore.
Growing up is difficult. If you know of any jobs that would suit me well, although I doubt it, feel free to contact me. Otherwise, I'll be applying for anything and everything that comes my way. Granted they're fields I'm interested in.
Wish me luck.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Return to Daily Routine.
Last week was the most relaxing week I've had in a long time. Yes, no intense anger, just a few itty bickers, but all in all, a great time all around in Puerto Rico. We visited a few places in Puerto Rico, explored the Rio de Camuy Cueva Clara, went hiking in the El Yunque rainforest, swimming on a beach that looked like the setting for lost, explored an old city, and of course, peaceful sleep. I'm not a picture -taking kind of person. I steal pictures from my friends. I only take pictures in places I know I don't want to forget aka Paris. Hah. Paris again. Anyways, I brought some homework, but none of it got done, so now it's back to the final month of school. I don't know if I'll go back to school, so as of now, this is the last month of school..ever. I am freaking out now. But, problem is, I can't bring myself to do any work. It's the homestretch and I'm lazy. What gives?! The sun probably. Oh well, time to get back into to groove of things and frantically search for a job on top of all the schoolwork I have to do. Why do teachers like to pile all of the workload in the last two weeks of school? They're just asking for procrastinated-half-assed work.
BLAH. This is my lazy post.
BLAH. This is my lazy post.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Phew. A break.
Hello old friends. Due to my exceptionally busy schedule and just lack of time, I haven't been able to update. Fortunately enough, it's SPRING BREAK! My last one too, I'm afraid. I'm gypped of one. UNFAIR. So, leading up to today, it's really just been, school & work, school & work therefore, I am due for a nice long sun-filled break. I'm currently in Jersey right now visiting my parents because it's my mother's birthday the day I leave. She's okay with it though. Weird.
Moving on. School has been over in my mind since the day it started this semester. I'm working on my thesis, trying to be interested in my PR class, trying to attend my EMI (Entertainment & Media Industries) class, and trying to stay healthy while I juggle these endless papers on top of my internship. I've been managing well lately, I'm proud of myself..to some extent. There's only two months left until graduation! May 10th and May 12th. Yes, I graduate twice. It's great, get the use of my gown ya'know. It's $50 dollars to rent! Crazy.
In terms of job searching, I've had people offer me internships, which I don't want. I have to contact a few people from job fairs because they said they would contact me and if I didn't hear, I should reach out to them. So, that's what I'm doing. Discovery is being good to me. I've learned a lot about selling, how to work around things, time management, and met lots of different people. The people at Discovery really make the company, they're all happy and want to be there. Weird, right? It makes me want it more! My boss and I have been getting along quite well, I'd like to call her my "third mentor"--we're assigned two from the start. Another one of mine just returned from getting married (!!) and the other is working her butt off because...well it's her job. She's good at it. I don't blame her.
Asides from Midterms week, I've had a lovely time in New York, despite the cold weather. I love meeting new people and going to places I've never been. I explored the LES bars and EV bars. I'm not an alcoholic, but a few drinks are always nice after a long day. New favorites are Bua and Piano's Bar. Always a little crowded, but usually a good time. My friend's girlfriend has been visiting for a month, she left last Wednesday (sad). It doesn't matter though, because we had a great time, I met a few more European people to add to my list of friends across the pond, and just enjoyed spur of the moment activities with the girl. Always a good time.
Then there's food. Always food. I've eaten at Congee Village, Cafe Orlin, IchiUmi, May's, Pommes Frites, Flea Market Cafe, Westville East, La Palapa, amongst so many others. I can't even begin to describe the multiple food-gasms I've had. Kat has always introduced me to new places to eat, and I love her for it. Food is a huge staple in my life because well, that's the only time I'm able to see people or they're able to see me. Again, always a good time.
Well, now I'm at home, bumming around, posting on my blog. I leave for Puerto Rico on Monday and return Friday. I don't expect to take pictures, but that's how I am (unless it's Paris of course). I'm excited for so much sun and just absolute relaxation. To end this, I will post some epic photographs. Ciao.
Moving on. School has been over in my mind since the day it started this semester. I'm working on my thesis, trying to be interested in my PR class, trying to attend my EMI (Entertainment & Media Industries) class, and trying to stay healthy while I juggle these endless papers on top of my internship. I've been managing well lately, I'm proud of myself..to some extent. There's only two months left until graduation! May 10th and May 12th. Yes, I graduate twice. It's great, get the use of my gown ya'know. It's $50 dollars to rent! Crazy.
In terms of job searching, I've had people offer me internships, which I don't want. I have to contact a few people from job fairs because they said they would contact me and if I didn't hear, I should reach out to them. So, that's what I'm doing. Discovery is being good to me. I've learned a lot about selling, how to work around things, time management, and met lots of different people. The people at Discovery really make the company, they're all happy and want to be there. Weird, right? It makes me want it more! My boss and I have been getting along quite well, I'd like to call her my "third mentor"--we're assigned two from the start. Another one of mine just returned from getting married (!!) and the other is working her butt off because...well it's her job. She's good at it. I don't blame her.
Asides from Midterms week, I've had a lovely time in New York, despite the cold weather. I love meeting new people and going to places I've never been. I explored the LES bars and EV bars. I'm not an alcoholic, but a few drinks are always nice after a long day. New favorites are Bua and Piano's Bar. Always a little crowded, but usually a good time. My friend's girlfriend has been visiting for a month, she left last Wednesday (sad). It doesn't matter though, because we had a great time, I met a few more European people to add to my list of friends across the pond, and just enjoyed spur of the moment activities with the girl. Always a good time.
Then there's food. Always food. I've eaten at Congee Village, Cafe Orlin, IchiUmi, May's, Pommes Frites, Flea Market Cafe, Westville East, La Palapa, amongst so many others. I can't even begin to describe the multiple food-gasms I've had. Kat has always introduced me to new places to eat, and I love her for it. Food is a huge staple in my life because well, that's the only time I'm able to see people or they're able to see me. Again, always a good time.
Well, now I'm at home, bumming around, posting on my blog. I leave for Puerto Rico on Monday and return Friday. I don't expect to take pictures, but that's how I am (unless it's Paris of course). I'm excited for so much sun and just absolute relaxation. To end this, I will post some epic photographs. Ciao.
Monday, March 1, 2010
The Latest Sunday.
Song of the Week: Rihanna's Te Amo
I understand my pictures were a bit eclectic in choice. They didn't complement each other in any way. Plus it was just dumb. Now, I'll try to stick to a theme yes?
Pictures of the day:
via keepinspiring.me
I understand my pictures were a bit eclectic in choice. They didn't complement each other in any way. Plus it was just dumb. Now, I'll try to stick to a theme yes?
Pictures of the day:
via keepinspiring.meThursday, February 25, 2010
I Want...
I want to dance again.
I dream of places I want to go.
I want to be like her.
I want to see this one day.
I want to paint again.
I want to create a fastastical world.
I want to live with no regrets.
I want to hate the cold weather.
I want to wear and make beautiful clothes.
But all I really need is peace.Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I Don't Know What Day it is Anymore
Interesting week, it's been. Yes, Yoda talk. The past week has been interesting and confusing at the same time. Discovery has been picking up, probably because I hound my boss for work. Not always a bad thing, right? From what I can tell, I think I and this one other girl, out of five, enjoy this internship the most. I can do what they ask and new things are usually quick for me to learn. I like finishing work, it makes me feel good. Call me weird. Today we had two extra long meetings - one about a program designed by Discovery's IT department, cool, and another about how marketing and ad sales marketing works, which was cool, but it got a little dull when he talked about what we, or at least this other girl and I already knew. So it was a day with basically, a four hour meeting. It's tiring, these meetings! Blah. Moving on. Had lunch with my fellow interns. Finished my work and headed off to class.
This week, my social innovation marketing class was held at Weber Shandwick at 55th and 3rd. Right next to work! Success! It was the most beautiful office I have ever seen. I wish I took a picture. Ha, too bad! So, we had Weber Shandwick employees talk to us about what social innovation really meant, we talked about what the company actually does, why they do what they do, and why what they do is good. Broad, I know, but if I talk about everything we learned, this post would end up a novel. Overall, I got the best impression for the company and well, it's now one of the companies I want to work for in the future. There's an internship available. I'm fighting for it.
On a more...dreary note, it's been quite a long week. It feels like Friday, which is never a good thing, because there's still two more days in the week. My days are driven by coffee and espresso, today especially, and I'm so out of focus with my schoolwork. This week is crucial. Midterms are next week. I had a nice little escape today with the Lau family - I happen to join them at their meals since it's the only time I get to see Kat. Had wonderful Pho at Pho Bang [haha I know], and carrot cake at someplace on Mulberry which was amazing. Food escapes are always fun. With the Lau bunch, they never skimp on food. So, that was fun. Now it's midnight and I have heartburn and work in the morning. Tums and bedtime. After a few pictures posts of my...favorite things. Kinda.
This week, my social innovation marketing class was held at Weber Shandwick at 55th and 3rd. Right next to work! Success! It was the most beautiful office I have ever seen. I wish I took a picture. Ha, too bad! So, we had Weber Shandwick employees talk to us about what social innovation really meant, we talked about what the company actually does, why they do what they do, and why what they do is good. Broad, I know, but if I talk about everything we learned, this post would end up a novel. Overall, I got the best impression for the company and well, it's now one of the companies I want to work for in the future. There's an internship available. I'm fighting for it.
On a more...dreary note, it's been quite a long week. It feels like Friday, which is never a good thing, because there's still two more days in the week. My days are driven by coffee and espresso, today especially, and I'm so out of focus with my schoolwork. This week is crucial. Midterms are next week. I had a nice little escape today with the Lau family - I happen to join them at their meals since it's the only time I get to see Kat. Had wonderful Pho at Pho Bang [haha I know], and carrot cake at someplace on Mulberry which was amazing. Food escapes are always fun. With the Lau bunch, they never skimp on food. So, that was fun. Now it's midnight and I have heartburn and work in the morning. Tums and bedtime. After a few pictures posts of my...favorite things. Kinda.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Change.
So, my life has been a bore lately. Routine schedule and whatnot. The internet in my apartment is terrible, therefore the lack of posts and lack of interesting entries. (Apparently I don't post enough, says a friend of mine.)
From now on, when I have no words to express, I am going to do photo stories of emotions throughout my day. When my emotions are significant, there will be a post. Hopefully now, more posts. The pictures are for you to decipher.
Lovely.
On another note, Kat, the blogger of lestorydefood.blogspot.com, has moved to her own domain: lestorydefood.com. I encourage you to read her posts. They'll make you hungry and angry at the fact that you cannot eat what she has already eaten, but on another note, it's quite colorful and fun to read.
images (in no particular order)
via lindseytarynphoto.com, www.flickr.com/photos/jeffl37, keepinspiring.me, www.flickr.com/photos/moriza, fuckyeahhappy.tumblr.com
From now on, when I have no words to express, I am going to do photo stories of emotions throughout my day. When my emotions are significant, there will be a post. Hopefully now, more posts. The pictures are for you to decipher.
Lovely.
On another note, Kat, the blogger of lestorydefood.blogspot.com, has moved to her own domain: lestorydefood.com. I encourage you to read her posts. They'll make you hungry and angry at the fact that you cannot eat what she has already eaten, but on another note, it's quite colorful and fun to read.
images (in no particular order)via lindseytarynphoto.com, www.flickr.com/photos/jeffl37, keepinspiring.me, www.flickr.com/photos/moriza, fuckyeahhappy.tumblr.com
what snow should look like.
via keepinspiring.meIf snow ever looked this beautiful, I think I'd like it more. Countryside, here I come.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
He Lied.
“ The government of the United States of America is not, in any sense, founded on the Christian religion.
Treaty signed by George Washington, 1796.
via pegobry.tumblr.com
Let Me Entertain You.
Entertainment. Netflix. Movies. Messages.
The purpose of most things in life are for entertainment. Movies, newspapers, celebrity glamour, internet, blogs, TV, you, me, everything. Why are we all so keen in exposing a fault or a heroic act that we've done? What does glamour and fame have to do with our lives? People can spend their entire lives trying to prove themselves in a name, spend their lives for that 15 minutes of fame. What does fame hold? Happiness? Recognition? I mean, from what we've seen from tabloids and scandal stories, the paparazzi are the last thing you want in your life? No more privacy, no more opportunities to be alone, no opportunities to be you. I think its the need to live luxuriously, to be wealthy that makes people want all the unnecessary fluff that come along with it. Look at most of the celebrities--most of them aren't even celebrities, they're socialites, reality stars, people who basically have no talent but sell themselves to people who are interested in looking at them or hearing what they have to say. They aren't smart, they have no purpose in being a celebrity, they have no talent. If they had these qualities, they could still be wealthy and famous but with a much better reputation and a much better state of mind knowing they actually earned their wealth.
I just find people who criticize other people's lives then try to pursue that same exact route, extremely annoying and hypocritical. People blame each other for being racist, but is anyone actually not racist? Is there one person in this world that hasn't made fun of another race, make a snark racist joke? On the subway, I saw people arguing with someone of a different race, they yelled at each other and called each other racist remarks. One man gets off but they still yell at each other. The doors close and the one man shouts that the other man cannot be racist, its not fair to his people, they were slaves (now you know one man is black), all white people are racists, he doesn't give a @*&% about white crackers, racist remarks one right after another. It was as if he were preaching to everyone on the train that he wasn't the stereotypical black man when it was clear that he was advertising himself as this cookie cutter image. I can't say I'm not racist because I am. I can't say my family and friends aren't racist, because they are. People are always trying to achieve this image that they really are not. Does not being racist make you virtuous and normal? It's just natural. I'm not saying racism is right, it isn't, I frown upon it, but I'd be a hypocrite to say I am not.
Sorry, I digressed, but I mean to express my point of glamour and wealth. Even this man on the train, him voicing his opinion on racism made him the topic of many people's conversation that day, including mine, and even now. His fame was directed toward the packed subway train, but it made him known. He may not have made money, but if there were an opportunity, I believe he would've taken it. People say money is the root to all evil, it doesn't make you happy. Well, doesn't it? People aim to gain money most of their lives. Once they make money they live happily, become philanthropists, and find 'love.' There are multiple stories that illustrate men and women who choose each other over wealth, but there's always that moment where the person chooses the wealth, then takes back their choice. Wealth is in their mind. There's a saying that goes, "You'll lose money by chasing women, but you'll never lose women by chasing money." True or not? Women want to be secure, money is their security, men with more money are secure, she falls in love with this wealth... or man, marry him, and lives a happy life of luxury. There's many arguments for this paragraph. Indulge me you sappy heartfelt lovers.
Moving from that, wealth usually gains a certain social status and recognition in a higher society of wealthy people that makes the person known by these exclusive group of people. They may make a donation to a school or museum and then become known to a larger group of people.
Always, humans will revolve around recognition and wealth. I know you want it, I want it too. I lean more toward wealth before recognition. But that's just me. I'd rather be rich and unknown than rich and known. Just saying.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Lacking.
Ever felt that feeling that you're lacking something? I'm there. I'm studying the business of corporate social responsibility and I feel like I have to contribute back to people, going Gandhi here. Just because I feel this way doesn't mean I can just jump out and do something. I feel like to do something so selfless, one, you have to be established in life, two, have enough wealth to help a cause, and three, influential friends who will get the word out. I am far from there. Hopefully one day it'll happen. But, not yet. Goal in life: be a philanthropist.
Tomorrow is the first day of Discovery! I'm so excited. A bit nervous but excited. My boss called me today and said "where are you? all the interns are getting settled in." I freaked out, but it was all just a misunderstanding of schedules. I do start tomorrow. Phew. Good thing though, the career fair was today and I wanted to get out there and give my resume to some employers. Fail. Everyone's looking for interns because they can't afford to pay anyone in this economy. Free labor for the win? I don't even know how the phrase 'for the win' began anyway. Scratch that from any future posts. The philanthropist in me geared toward the Peace Corps, but it's too late to apply to that now, but maybe next year. Keeping my options open.
This Corporate Social Responsibility class is really getting to me. I'm really interested and consistently doing my readings which I can't say I'm quite doing for another class I'm not particularly interested in. Hah. Not telling.
Looking for a part-time job in the meantime as my internship doesn't call for too many hours a week. Where should I work? Retail? blechalskdn. I think I may have to.
Tomorrow is the first day of Discovery! I'm so excited. A bit nervous but excited. My boss called me today and said "where are you? all the interns are getting settled in." I freaked out, but it was all just a misunderstanding of schedules. I do start tomorrow. Phew. Good thing though, the career fair was today and I wanted to get out there and give my resume to some employers. Fail. Everyone's looking for interns because they can't afford to pay anyone in this economy. Free labor for the win? I don't even know how the phrase 'for the win' began anyway. Scratch that from any future posts. The philanthropist in me geared toward the Peace Corps, but it's too late to apply to that now, but maybe next year. Keeping my options open.
This Corporate Social Responsibility class is really getting to me. I'm really interested and consistently doing my readings which I can't say I'm quite doing for another class I'm not particularly interested in. Hah. Not telling.
Looking for a part-time job in the meantime as my internship doesn't call for too many hours a week. Where should I work? Retail? blechalskdn. I think I may have to.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
The Daily Grind
Today was much more exciting than yesterday. I felt like I went through about 3 days in a span of 6 hours. Went to bed late doing some reading after another screening of Avatar in true IMAX 3D which is infinite times better than what any other theater puts up and calls IMAX. Unfortunately, there were little bugs appearing on the screen which resembled bedbugs, but I didn't see them myself, but I freaked out a bit. Just for a bit. The true IMAX screen is literally four times bigger than the screen set up in the AMC theaters. No lie. In the medium shot scenes I felt like I was in the moment. Absolutely great picture. The story lacked a little more this time around because I knew what was going to happen but when the emotional times came along, I was so into it. Okay. So, Avatar promotion done.
Woke up and did some more reading, then I headed out to buy a recorder for my voice class and ran up to my orientation at Discovery. We had a national orientation, so basically, conference calling. Pretty cool, nonetheless. Forgot my paperwork so I'm running back to Jersey tomorrow to get it, after I get my resume critiqued and in the 2010 Resume Book at Wasserman. Rush rush rush. All in a New York minute. Things have been so continuously hectic even though I don't have class til the afternoon and I haven't gotten a part-time job yet. Wow. Where did my life go?
Anyways, today was an interesting marketing class. I thoroughly enjoy this class, not just because the instructors are nice, but because they're actually working in the field they're teaching, and they LOVE it. Makes me wish I were passionate about something. I mean, there's a girl in the class, I forgot her name, she commits herself to non-profit organizations in non-genocide groups and environmental protection. She's so passionate about everything she talks about, it's just evident in her voice. My passion? Current status? Nothing. That's a goal for the next 10 years. Find what I'm passionate about.
After, had a nice dinner/talk with Hoolie and we reflected on our college careers. She seemed to have found a direction for the moment. We both realized there's a lot more to learn. I also need to find inspiration for the moment. Get through the next few years somehow. Right?
What inspires you?
Woke up and did some more reading, then I headed out to buy a recorder for my voice class and ran up to my orientation at Discovery. We had a national orientation, so basically, conference calling. Pretty cool, nonetheless. Forgot my paperwork so I'm running back to Jersey tomorrow to get it, after I get my resume critiqued and in the 2010 Resume Book at Wasserman. Rush rush rush. All in a New York minute. Things have been so continuously hectic even though I don't have class til the afternoon and I haven't gotten a part-time job yet. Wow. Where did my life go?
Anyways, today was an interesting marketing class. I thoroughly enjoy this class, not just because the instructors are nice, but because they're actually working in the field they're teaching, and they LOVE it. Makes me wish I were passionate about something. I mean, there's a girl in the class, I forgot her name, she commits herself to non-profit organizations in non-genocide groups and environmental protection. She's so passionate about everything she talks about, it's just evident in her voice. My passion? Current status? Nothing. That's a goal for the next 10 years. Find what I'm passionate about.
After, had a nice dinner/talk with Hoolie and we reflected on our college careers. She seemed to have found a direction for the moment. We both realized there's a lot more to learn. I also need to find inspiration for the moment. Get through the next few years somehow. Right?
What inspires you?
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
The last.
So, today is the day I depart back to school for the last semester of my undergraduate career. I have to say I learned more about myself rather than anything in the classroom. Huh. I can't wait to see what next semester brings-well, hopefully good memories but I'm sure there will be bad ones too. I've read a few books this winter break, but not what I wanted to get through because of Super Mario and Call of Duty. They're addicting games, I must say. Got to see Avatar (which is now my favorite movie) and Sherlock Holmes amongst many other films and I think I enjoyed it. Films are fun. Kind of. I've learned a lot about the superficiality in people and the existence of this in my family. It's actually been quite a productive break even though half of the time I just shmooze around.
Discovery is right around the corner and I've never been more excited to work for free. Well, because I'm working for no pay, I think I'll go find a part-time job. I'm sure only retailers will hire me. Womp. What can I do? It's all I have on my stupid resume. School starts on Tuesday and I already have a buttload of reading due on Wednesday for my marketing class. I don't know how I feel about that, I don't want to concentrate too much on this class and take away from my Senior requirements. We'll see how the first day goes.
I want to do something I love. I don't want to end up unhappy in a cubicle. Hopefully this semester will shed some light as to which direction I should take.
Discovery is right around the corner and I've never been more excited to work for free. Well, because I'm working for no pay, I think I'll go find a part-time job. I'm sure only retailers will hire me. Womp. What can I do? It's all I have on my stupid resume. School starts on Tuesday and I already have a buttload of reading due on Wednesday for my marketing class. I don't know how I feel about that, I don't want to concentrate too much on this class and take away from my Senior requirements. We'll see how the first day goes.
I want to do something I love. I don't want to end up unhappy in a cubicle. Hopefully this semester will shed some light as to which direction I should take.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Gearing for the End.
So, it's almost time for school to start again, on Tuesday, and my job to start the following Monday. Time to get back to real life, right? I've been so bored anyway. It's just been, in all seriousness, playing house. My mother left last Wednesday and in that time, I've washed an uncountable number dishes and about 5 loads of laundry. I sleep late so I wake up late and the errands that should be done in the morning get done in the afternoon. I just remembered I forgot to go to Costco to help my mom do a price exchange. Womp. I can do it Saturday before I leave. We went last Saturday to do it, but the line was too long. People just love Costco. I should stop by to buy some food/drinks for school. I am a Costco lover.
Went snowboarding again yesterday at Blue Mountain with a different group of people. Much better I believe, buddy system. I learned to carve. Now, I just need time to practice. Too bad I'm going back to school on Saturday or I'd do another day. Mike and Susie are carving beasts. I love watching them snowboard. If I were an avid camera fiend, all my pictures would be them tearing up the mountain.
That day was also my first encounter with one of the most reckless drivers on the road. Pennsylvania drivers are worse than New Jersey drivers. I can say that from the 3 hours I was in Pennsylvania on Monday. This one guy zooms ahead of me and then suddenly slams on his brakes, screeching and smoke comes off the ground. I had to slam on my brakes even though I was a good distance away. He freaked me out and I was shaking for a good half hour. This asshole was smiling after this while tailgating me right after. I passed him when I slammed on my brakes into the shoulder of the road. Since when are accidents a laughing matter? I hope he got in one on Monday, he deserves it. Then after, he was flailing around Route 78 on the middle of the road. What is that?! Revoke his license. Terrible. Then another woman was tailgating me, so close that if I tapped my brakes when she blinked, she would crash into my car. Tell me Pennsylvania is a good place to drive. I hate Pennsylvania.
I'm supposed to go to Mitsuwa tomorrow with a friend. I don't know if it's happening. We both sleep late, but I want Japanese food. It's in Fort Lee and I haven't been for a few years. If anyone has a chance to go to Fort Lee, Mitsuwa is worth visiting.
Going back to school on Saturday to settle in and figure out my schedule, where to go, what to do, grocery shopping, all that fun stuff. My lovelies are mostly all in New York already. I foresee another semester of hardcore studying. I don't know why I challenge myself so much with some classes. Looking forward to Discovery and graduation! Finally done with school. Well, for the meantime. I'll go back for my Masters or MBA sometime in the future.
I just felt like updating since I have nothing really to do. I lied, going to do laundry now. I forgot about it.
This is my last winter break... ever.
Went snowboarding again yesterday at Blue Mountain with a different group of people. Much better I believe, buddy system. I learned to carve. Now, I just need time to practice. Too bad I'm going back to school on Saturday or I'd do another day. Mike and Susie are carving beasts. I love watching them snowboard. If I were an avid camera fiend, all my pictures would be them tearing up the mountain.
That day was also my first encounter with one of the most reckless drivers on the road. Pennsylvania drivers are worse than New Jersey drivers. I can say that from the 3 hours I was in Pennsylvania on Monday. This one guy zooms ahead of me and then suddenly slams on his brakes, screeching and smoke comes off the ground. I had to slam on my brakes even though I was a good distance away. He freaked me out and I was shaking for a good half hour. This asshole was smiling after this while tailgating me right after. I passed him when I slammed on my brakes into the shoulder of the road. Since when are accidents a laughing matter? I hope he got in one on Monday, he deserves it. Then after, he was flailing around Route 78 on the middle of the road. What is that?! Revoke his license. Terrible. Then another woman was tailgating me, so close that if I tapped my brakes when she blinked, she would crash into my car. Tell me Pennsylvania is a good place to drive. I hate Pennsylvania.
I'm supposed to go to Mitsuwa tomorrow with a friend. I don't know if it's happening. We both sleep late, but I want Japanese food. It's in Fort Lee and I haven't been for a few years. If anyone has a chance to go to Fort Lee, Mitsuwa is worth visiting.
Going back to school on Saturday to settle in and figure out my schedule, where to go, what to do, grocery shopping, all that fun stuff. My lovelies are mostly all in New York already. I foresee another semester of hardcore studying. I don't know why I challenge myself so much with some classes. Looking forward to Discovery and graduation! Finally done with school. Well, for the meantime. I'll go back for my Masters or MBA sometime in the future.
I just felt like updating since I have nothing really to do. I lied, going to do laundry now. I forgot about it.
This is my last winter break... ever.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Winter.
via pegotry.tumblr.comThat would be Great Britain, covered in snow. You don't like me Great Britain.
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