Today was the first day of the last year of my undergraduate career, what does that mean? That means I'm almost done and almost free! People always reminisce on their college days. All of my previous bosses--well at least the one who were nice and talked to me, told me they all missed college. I may miss it...but not right away. Ha. Today was the remembrance of the first day of long elevator lines, lost freshman, and the overcrowding of the terrible, but the very accessible, Starbucks. I don't know if this is something people will remember or choose to miss. I missed open walkways and streets in Paris and the New York summer, uncrowded buildings for summer classes. All that jazz.
I'm just thinking back to the past 2 years here at NYU. Nothing good except the few close friends I've made. All of my teachers were TA's or adjuncts give or take one..two yeah, two actual professors. I pay 50 grand a year for fucking TA's and adjuncts? Just take my entire life savings why don't you? Schools no longer care about your education. Yessirree. I can say this from my experience at NYU. They only want your money. NYU only cares about Tisch and Stern because they spit out the people who make the most money and donate back to the school. Oh, hey. I'm sorry. If you invested as much time into the other schools maybe we'd donate money when we graduate too. I am NOT giving NYU a penny when I graduate. I need more financial aid. I get none. My friend who has absolutely NO support from her parents who need it more than I do, gets barely nothing. What's this need based thing? There's no such thing. I just want to get out of here. Graduate and never come back to this place. I didn't like it when I even first stepped foot on this campus to visit. I liked Columbia much better. But, NYU was more practical and my only choice other than Rutgers. I wasn't allowed to choose what I wanted. Now, I'm thinking maybe I should have went to Rutgers. Save about 150,000 dollars and probably get a better education. Just sayin.
So that's my rant. NYU sucks balls and I want a diploma and a refund. I did my part, NYU didn't do theirs. Unfair. So unfair. My friend only noticed this today in one of his classes. He's lucky. He takes Stern classes until he strolled into the class he had with me today. I've only had these kinds of teachers. At least he gets real professors.
I also went to the Health center for my infected bug bites today. What did I get? Nothing. Yeah, you need an appointment. But yeah, THEY'RE NOT ONLINE. This system changed from the last time I went, and I think they should constantly update new ways to access and schedule appointments. Just saying. My legs are swollen to the point where I can barely walk and they want me to pay $10 to get a nurse's assessment to tell me what I already know and in the end, leave with nothing and still can't walk. Oh joy. Why don't you just let the infected blood run through my body and let me die instead? Thanks.
Sometime I think life is just unfair. Why do people have highs and lows except me? I may have a high, but the for the shortest time. Less than half a day, then everything is back to shit. I had a great time abroad, but there was nothing exceptional except that nothing went terribly wrong. Some people have the best luck but don't deserve it. How am I supposed to get through anything knowing that I won't win or succeed as much as anyone else in life. This sucks. It makes me unmotivated. Great. Fuck this shit. I just need to get through one more year. Then figure out what makes me happy. Please happen.
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