something new.

So, today was uneventful. I woke up late again, went to yoga at 2, made Ben some dinner and went to class. So why post? Well the event of something new! I don't know about other people, but for me, school is a job. I dislike school. Scratch that. Abhor it. I'm not one for learning about things I'm not interested in. History of Communications? Interpersonal Communications? Introductory classes that just give you a really broad explanation that you'll learn in the intermediate classes? I don't like it. At all. People say that college is the best experience of your life. Is it really? Because I'm not having a good time. College is that transition period where students will worry about boys, girls, which turn into worrying about jobs and survival after college? I think survival tactics and actually learning what people do at the job is something to learn. School should be in the business. Theory classes are for the academia lovers. I may develop this love later, but now is just not the time.

Classes like my Intro to Photography I is something interesting. Something I know nothing about at all. It doesn't involve books or theories about the damn thing. You just do it. You learn by doing. This is how I prefer to learn things, maybe other people think so, too. I didn't know how use a manual 35mm camera 2 weeks ago. Now I do. I didn't know how to develop film into negatives. Now, I do. I didn't know how to use a darkroom or develop my actual pictures. Now, I do. It's still very on the rocks and not professional, but it's learning something new. I did this in a week. I want to learn things like this. I want to learn about EVERYTHING that has something to do with being active and in the field. It interests me more than sitting at home reading my accounting book on theories built from ancestors thousands of year ago. No, man. It's not my time.

College was forced upon me because it was the logical next step out of high school. My parents worked hard all their life to put us through school, get an education. Sure, it's important. But shouldn't we have a choice when to go? I was talking to a friend today. She's interested in the Peace Corps [I'm pretty interested now] and to even do that you need a Bachelor's degree. Since when does sheer will and a strong mind overpowered by a piece of paper that only says we have a fucking degree? I don't understand. Vraiment. Anyway, I know people will be hatin and getting in my business so I don't tell them this. The televised, worldwide media has brainwashed us all into this society where everything is judged by what you do and what you say. No brain, no extensive vocabulary, no smart comments means dumbass. That dumbass could probably be the person that saves your life. You never know. I'm just saying. The society we live in, this extremely fast paced-money driven society has made me realize wish I lived in a different generation. The 1800s, 1700s, I don't know. The early 1900s. Hell, when dinosaurs ruled the earth. I don't care. I think anything would be better than today. I don't know. I think I just miss the relaxed lifestyle of the French and their amazing culture and lax attitude about school and work. Enjoy life. We're missing out. I know this because I tried to catch up on living in France. I haven't made up for lost time. Now I'm back in New York, wasting more time.

We need to live and learn from other people. Not from fucking books. Books are great to read, I'm not saying we shouldn't read. I'm saying learning about other people's culture, their way of life, life different from ours, is what I think is most important. Sharing experiences and knowledge. Of course it's informal, but what's a better way to learn than from friends?

On another note, completely different, but I feel the need to write this down as it is a very important time in our lives. My generation, the previous generation and the generation before that all knew of Michael Jackson. I watched the Michael Jackson memorial service this evening and it rocked me to my core, mec. It hit me so hard. When Usher performed, Stevie Wonder's speech and tribute, Jermaine Jackson's rendition of 'Smile' for Michael, and little Paris Katherine Jackson gave her speech, I almost broke down and cried. I never cry for things like this or get emotional, but just seeing their pain hurt me too. I didn't know I had feelings like this. Michael Jackson is very much an idol, someone I'll never forget, someone who I'll never meet. Rest in peace, mec. Finally, Rest In Peace. 1958-2009.