one more time.

So, tonight was superb, well in a way. I have friends that don't mind getting drunk with me on a weekday. Nice. But sometimes, 40 year old bouncers don't do it for me. Although, I am interested in his artwork. That's a story. I won't tell you, it's not interesting.

Anyhow, this past week has been somewhat hectic and boring. Yes, the extremes. I have been deciding about this internship about Lalique because I think I've taken all I can from these people. It's that time. I need a new internship stat. Also, went to Steven Madden today to buy shoes. Ended up being offered a job as a retail associate because I knew someone who worked there who worked with me before. Fuck. I don't think I wanna do that again. It's just all kinds of crazy, unless I get commission. I need a job to pay my bills. My parents can't do that for me anymore. I had this argument/talk with a friend of mine who's all on loans but I mean, it's her fault. She could've gone to a state school for free, but she chose NYU. Not my problem, mec. Not my problem. It's just hard accepting money from my parents. I know until I get a job, there is no way I can spend like I am. Swiping and all that bullshit. I need to stop. I wish there was someway to get rid of all my credit, my parents and sisters credit, and start all over. Fuck. It sucks.

I also was recently, hit on by a friend. It was awkward. Really awkward. Hectic, to say to least. Not my kinda show. Friends are friends and I'm not really attracted to him unless I'm super drunk. It doesn't happen often, unless I were in Paris. Speaking of Paris, I hung out with a friend from France, met her friend Raphael, and managed to understand/kinda conversate in French. Really made me happy. Kinda made me realize I need to go back to France. ASAP. I don't know what to do.

Something exciting, developed my own pictures and printing them tomorrow for class. I'm excited. Taking more pictures tomorrow. I need money. I think I have to take this job. Fuck. My. Life.