The falling out.

So, after vacation for two weeks with my "best friend", she begins to ignore me. I don't understand why while my friend from home begins, or rather, continues to flake out on me, and my gay friend has disappeared. What do I do? Schoolwork is beginning to pile because I haven't done any since I've gotten here, and my funds are extremely low. Why do I make terrible choices? So this girl is a big problem because I don't know what I've done wrong. Her best friend from home visits, and not wanting to upset her, I wait till she leaves before I confront her. Her answer is 'nothing, I just don't feel like going out too much, I'm short on money, I thought you'd get the wrong idea' whilst she continues to go out everyday and spend mad cash. Alright. She's angry, she won't tell me, I'll leave it be. Don't want any high school drama in my life. Few days later, her best gay friend pisses her off, and me wanting to talk to him to be a good friend to both of them, gets pushed and harassed by this boy and ends up getting on her good side. What the fuck? Messed up. I ignore her. She gets angry and posts passive aggressive facebook status'. Alright, I try to be nice for the sake of it. I've found new friends to hang out with, ones I've had but have been distant from because this girl's been dragging me everywhere.

Julia, Silvie, Olivia, and Sofia have been my chill buddies. Julia's boyfriend is mad chill and they're just great friends to me now, overall. I regret not seeing her more often. Anyhow, this is really all over the place. Since we've gotten back, I've been doing most of the work for my Ethnography project which is pissing me off because I know I hate working in large groups because of the uneven work distribution yet I allowed this to happen. Fuck. I've had papers due, a sickness that I'm still trying to get over [I think it's a reoccurring bronchitis], a 10 page research paper I need to get started on, two 10-minute videos for video production class, and the 20 minute documentary for Ethnography. Fuck my life. It's not difficult, but it's a lot. I hate bullshit work.

On another note, my old roommate, Mimi and my friend Molly visited from Florence. I gave then a huge tour of Paris, although I never really thought about meals, and went out every night. They had a good time, as did I. Although after I left, I realized how much I liked to be alone. Haha. Oops. I have this problem with people. I don't think I could even maintain a relationship with a man or ever get married. Hmm. Friends are okay. I don't see them every day.

So it's daylight savings time in Paris. One hour ahead. Shit. Lost an hour. Slept over Julia and Jeremy's last night. Had good Chinese food today in Chinatown and found soy sauce for cooking. Baller. And lost 2 from writing these posts. What do I do? Oh well. I don't know what else to write except I can't stop thinking about one thing. Fuck my life. And it's not sex. Thanks. Off to do homework, or attempt to.