Happier?

It's been a few days since I've been back and it's been bittersweet. I've missed New York and I think I actually miss my home. My parents have been extremely nice and there's something weird about that. But, I guess all's well. I think I may actually visit home a few times this summer. Hmm. If you don't know me, that's an odd thing.

So, I've been in New York for exactly three days. Bored out of my mind, jobless, and about to be internship-less. Thing is, my boss is about to leave her job at my internship therefore, I would stop going because I'm going back to work for her... My jobless days consist of sleeping til noon then going out and spending money, going to class, spending more money then sleeping. Constant cycle. I hate it. I want to make money. My parents are supporting me right now. It feels so weird. I know people are going to say well aren't you glad you don't have to work? Answer? No. I'm not glad. I actually like working. I have fun. Or try my best. It's something to fill my time. Tomorrow I'm going to a few bartending open calls without any .... real bartending experience. Wish me luck on that. AHHH.

Oh, also. Been hanging out with Soo Young a lot. Yes, my friend's name is Soo Young. We went to get a mani-pedi. I've never gotten this done before. The woman cut off my massive cuticles and nasty feet corns. Hahaha. It's a big disgusting when you read this. But I got some awesome neon orange nails and hot pink toenails. I'm such a fan right now. All Soo Youngs doing. She has neon yellow nails and hot pink toenails. Bam. When I get a job, I will constantly do this forever and ever. Need to get my hair did too. Gawd. Why do women have to do so much to look good? I mean we don't have to, but most of us feel like we need to. Me too. I don't get any men and really, I've never actually been on a date. 20 years old. Never gone on a real date. Wow. Anyhow. That was a good time.

Went to Lalique today to find Suzie. She said I could work for her, I began on the spot and am currently, well was, calling and filing press/media kits for Lalique. It's something new. It's a good time. Ran into Rebecca from Puma after work today. It was great! I missed her so. I'm looking forward tomorrow. Mimi, my old roommate is coming in, we're going to see a friend's show at the Bitter End on Bleecker Street if anyone wants to join, going job hunting and finally having some work to do at Lalique during the day. Success!

So, those were the good things. Bad thing is, since I've gotten back I haven't been in touch with my friends. Why? They refuse to talk to me. Why? I have absolutely no idea. We all split for study abroad and this one girl decides to bitch out and declare we were all abandoning her. Are we really? Huh. Didn't really see it that way. Thought we all were going for school, just happened to be at the same time. Oh well. She continues to break our bond being flaky and reiterating the fact that she's found a new group of friends. A new group that influenced her to begin smoking, something she was so against and constantly yelled at me for, then made her this hipster bitch that she is not. Good for her. God. I'm ranting. She's really not worth it. The people that want to be my friend will make the effort. I'm just going to end this if she wants it that way. It's probably for the best. She didn't really do much for my soul anyhow.

Going to watch all of 30 rock. YAY.